Kinda Boring...

I am sorry that I don't have a whole lot to update, once again, life is just really crazy right now. If I had to describe everything that is going on in one word, it would be humility. I feel incredible humbled right now and...well I'm not sure what to do with that feeling.

Frank has been working like a maniac on my house all week and I know it has been hard on him and his family. I LOVE the way my house looks and appreciate everything that he has done more than he will ever know...but there is no way that I could ever repay him for all of this. So, I can't help but feel incredibly guilty for all the time I have taken away from his family.

My home church has been with Frank all week, working SO hard...and they actually raised money to come and do this! Again, I am SO grateful and in awe of how wonderful everything is, but I know there are plenty of other worthwhile things all of these guys could have been doing.

I guess I just hate the fact that I need other people so much. There is no way I would ever be able to do the work that has been done on my house, so I am dependant on other people to help make that happen. Other people that owe me nothing and really should be doing other things. Its probably my pride that makes me feel this way. I can't even begin to express how grateful I am for everything, but I know how unworthy I am as well.

I am excited to move back into my house and settle into some normalcy. I have felt very out of sorts for the last 2 weeks, not having a home or any semblance of a schedule. I am really struggling because I like to have things finished, and nothing I am doing is finished. I have a ton of balls in the air, so to speak, and I don't feel like I really have a grasp on any of them...and that tends to stress me out. In the next 2 weeks I will lead an AIM project, co-lead God's Girls, help run the Reading Rocks Party, hopefully clean my house (it is a disaster from all the work projects), finally close on my house, visit my parents for a few days and then leave for the mission trip. When I look at it like that, I get extremely overwhelmed. However, if I just focus on tomorrow, I think I will make it.

Tomorrow we are moving all of my furniture back to where it goes (right not the basement and 2nd floor have all the furniture, and the 1st floor is empty). I think several of the teens are going to help me...their servants' hearts are again extremely humbling. Once I do that, the cleaning will have to happen in sections, over the next few weeks. It will all get done, though...and even if it doesn't, its not the end of the world. Right? :)

PS I'm not exaggerating at all when I say that my house looks AMAZING! I will try and post pictures of the finished product tomorrow.