I'm Frustrated

Okay, I have held off on writing this post for the last few days because I was trying to get over my frustration and just push through. I absolutely know that things could be worse, and I don't feel at the end of my rope. Nonetheless, I am frustrated.

The last 2 weeks have been one crazy thing after the other, and they have built up fast. In 14 days:

1. Bonita has surgery on her hand (7 hours in the hospital)
2. I get locked in my bedroom
3. Bonita and Linda have their final truancy court appearance (4 hours at court)
4. My boss gets married the same day as a major AIM deadline. All but 2 people on our team attend the wedding (I am one of the 2), leaving only 2 of us to handle hundreds of phone calls and emails in one day.
5. I get into a car accident...and now the guy I hit is making false claims.
6. Some pretty serious issues of abuse come to light with one of the kids I am VERY close to.
7. My computer's hard drive dies and I have to get new one. (Actually, I got the new one and now have no idea how to install it). I did back most things up, so I didn't lose much...except a ton of emails. The computer thing could be so much worse...but even this much is a HUGE pain!!!!

Because of my computer issues (I'm using a borrowed one right now), I have had to take 2 days off work, and since I can't get the hard drive installed, it looks like I will miss tomorrow as well. Since I'm part time, I don't get vacation days, so I will have to make up the hours that I have missed.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I have to completely rearrange the upstairs of my house this weekend...including buying and putting together some new furniture. Why? Well, I can't go into a lot of details but basically I need to make my guest bedroom kid compatible. Bonita and Linda have a room in the basement and I have decided that I need to give Monique and Tasha a room as well. I don't want them to take over Bonita and Linda's room, so until I get a roommate (in May), I am converting my guest room into a room for Monique and Tasha (not sure what I'll do after that). And it needs to be done this weekend.

And finally, I am also looking to buy a new computer. I have been getting advice from my dad (and I'm open to more!) and am hoping to buy soon. I have been talking about getting a new laptop for a while (my current one is over 3 years old), mainly because I can't do what I need to do with my current laptop. So, while the new hard drive will give me access to a computer (assuming I can install the new hard drive), it doesn't solve all of my problems.

When you put everything together, to me its just a lot. Especially when you pile on top of that regular AIM stuff, God Squad, Kids Club, Prayer Pals, Girls Prayer Group, Teen Club, God's Girls, and I recently started tutoring 2 girls in math and reading. I don't really feel stressed, I almost think its so much and some of it is so weird that I am just not surprised by much. But, while I'm not really stressed, I am pretty tired.

One bright spot for me over the last few weeks has been having 2 really close friends come and visit me (at 2 different times in the last 2 weeks...whew!) I LOVED spending time with them and they were both HUGE encouragements to me...and we had a lot of fun! Of course, with both visits I spent way to much time hanging out and talking and not a lot of time sleeping. That might have contributed to why I feel so tired...

So, that's where I am right now. I don't even really know how I feel about everything except to say frustrated...yet I don't like just saying that, because I'm also okay. I guess tired might be the better word.

Of course, while I'm tired, my mind is still always going. :) As I mentioned earlier, I am tutoring 2 girls in math and reading and so far its going GREAT! So, I am reevaluating after-school in the fall and actually working on creating a one on one tutoring program instead of after-school. I'm REALLY excited about it and believe 100% that God is behind all of it, so we'll see where He takes it!

I'm also continuing to work on support raising (which is a big part of why I need a new laptop). And finally I am pursuing training as a foster parent. Don't worry, I am NOT actually becoming a foster parent, I just think the training will be very helpful.

That's about everything in a nut shell. In some ways I feel great...led by the Spirit, and I'm so tired I don't often find myself getting in His ways. In other ways, though, I am very tired and ready for a break from the crazy unexpected. Even for just a day...