I feel like I am living in a never ending romantic drama, and I'm tired of it. Let me explain:
We've all seen romantic dramas (I love them). Titanic and The Notebook are examples. Two people meet and at some point (usually pretty quickly) we realize that they are meant to be together. However, soon after we realize their destiny, obstacles get in the way. Things start out great, but then they get complicated. The lovers go through ups and downs and as the viewer we get frustrated, and a little nervous. Are they going to end up together? We watch as pride gets in the way of one admitting they are wrong or the other letting go of the hurt. We watch the lovers make ridiculous decisions and wonder (out loud if you are me, haha); "what are you thinking?!?" (Of course, many of us have made the same mistakes they have).
(Romantic Comedies are very similar except that the obstacles are funny and seem less intense to us. While at times I feel like I am the butt of cosmic jokes and enjoy laughing at the things going on in my life, there is way too much drama in my life for this to be a romantic comedy)
I enjoy watching the drama for a while, but eventually I long for the ending. The roller coaster gets old and I want to get to the end...hopefully, a happily ever after.
That is exactly where I am...longing to get to my ending...my happily ever after. Not with a man...with my bridegroom. I know I am guaranteed a happily ever after- an ending to the roller coaster and an entrance to a life of never ending and completely fulfilling love. No more obstacles coming between me and my great love- no more silly decisions, hurtful words or devastating actions (all of which, by the way, come from me). While I don't wonder what the end of my story will be, I am desperately longing to get there. Its not the suspense or the not knowing that's killing me, its the drama...the drama is getting old.
I want to be with Him so desperately I can barely stand it. My heart doesn't always match up with my actions-which is why the drama continues. I am ready for my lover to say "enough" and to come and get me. That's how most romantic dramas end...and how the book of revelation tells me my story will end as well. At some point my lover will get tired of the drama. He won't be able to stand being apart from me any longer and will come and get me.
Don't hear anything suicidal or depressing in this, I don't want to die...I just want to be with my lover. "How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?" (Psalm 13:1-2).
I like my life, I like the people in my life...but I love Him. I love Him desperately and with all that I am. I HATE being apart from Him. I have intimate moments with Him, but they simply leave me longing for more...because I know there is so much more. And then there are the days that I don't feel close to Him...the days when the drama continues and I feel empty and alone; and longing for Him.
I have come to the point in my life where nothing comes close to Him. He is so good...and nothing can compare. Don't get me wrong, I still settle for less than Him far too often. At times, I still seek comfort in things that are not Him, I sometimes desire simplicity and comfort over Him. That's more of the drama that I am so tired of, yet still participate in.
I wish my life was TiVoed. In fact, my TiVo remote has a button that I can push that will take me directly to the end. I would absolutely push that right now. I am not saying that I don't enjoy life...I just know I will enjoy my next life so much more.
Since I can't push the button, I sit and wait for the ending. I will try enjoy the experiences that make up my love story...the ups and the downs that come together to make my life. Truth be told, the drama only makes me fall more and more in love with Him, which I'm sure is why He allows the story to continue. He will get tired of it some day, though. He will get to the point where He can't stand being away from me anymore, and He will come get me. "Let us rejoice and be glad and give Him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come,
and his bride has made herself ready." (Revelation 19:7). I long for that day...with all of my heart, I long for that day.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Sunday, September 30, 2007
GREAT WEEKEND!!!
I had such a wonderful weekend! It started on Friday night when I went to Elizabeth and Frank's house with some friends. We played Balderdash all night and had so much fun. I really enjoyed laughing with them!!Saturday I got up early and drove to Hershey Park with Shera, J, Jen, Joy, and Lindsay. We spent the entire day at the park riding roller coasters, which I have discovered is a huge love of mine!! Jen and Lindsay aren't big fans of roller coasters, so when the rest of us rode the major coasters (like the Storm Runner that drops you 121 feet almost straight down!), they hung out together. We tried to ride as many things as possible together though. The only negative was having to stand in line for the rides, but we even turned that into a positive (I told you it was a great weekend!). While standing in line we decided to take turns picking rides out of the map and then acting them out for everyone else to guess. We laughed A LOT, acted very silly and it made the lines so much more fun. It was great!!
The "Granny Bugs" ride was the hardest for us to guess, so we decided to take a picture in front of it. We looked for it all day and finally found it as we were leaving the park!!By the end of the day we had convinced Lindsay to try some scarier roller coasters and she had a blast! By the time we left she was ready to try an upside down coaster!! We ran out of time, but we'll get her on one next time!!
We didn't leave the park until after 9 (after spending some time shopping for chocolate...were were at HERSHEY Park!), and didn't get home until after midnight. Our original plan was to stop for dinner on the way home, but we were so exhausted we just headed straight home. Jen (who is a student at PBU) and Lindsay spent the night with me which was fun too. We didn't stay up too late, but we had some laughs and everyone enjoyed Gizmo. I have the best cat ever!!! He entertained, and loved us for a while before we fell asleep.
I was pretty tired when I got to church this morning and wasn't very helpful at Sunday School, but enjoyed being there with the girls. I had a blast during worship this morning and had a really cool God moment with Paxton. Every Sunday he comes and sits with me during worship and morning announcements. He is so sweet and fun and I really love watching him, and worshipping with him even if we worship in different ways (he really enjoys spinning in circles, not my favorite thing, haha). Anyway, as we were singing one song I looked down at my left hand and started looking at my ring finger. I asked the Lord if He has a plan for that finger. I wasn't asking if He had a husband for me, I wasn't longing for a husband. I just wanted to hear from Him that married or single, I would always be loved and pursued. Its hard to explain what I really meant by that question, but God knew exactly what I was asking.
Literally as soon as I finished asking the question, Paxton grabbed my left hand, looked at it, took my ring finger, wrapped his hand around it and started to spin with a huge smile on his face...his beautiful brown eyes looking right at me. I knew at that moment that God absolutely loved me, was pursuing me and that He has a plan for me. It was awesome.
A friend, R, came to church today and brought his daughter. I was really excited to see him (he hasn't been to church in a while) and his daughter is so beautiful!! After church Shera and I went to lunch with Miguel and Linda. We had a lot of fun (can you see a theme for the weekend...fun!). Today is Peurto Rican Day, and Shera and I decided to celebrate. :) In Philly, Puerto Rican Day is a huge party. People drive around the city honking and yelling with Puerto Rican flags flying. There is also a televised parade. So as we were driving, Shera and I joined the fun rolling our windows down, honking and yelling. Linda and Miguel were extremely embarrassed, and we loved every second of it. They spent most of the car ride literally hiding in the back seat. When we got to Wendy's Linda announced "Just wait, I'm going to get you back on Irish Day!" (Haha, I'm assuming she meant St. Patrick's Day).
After lunch I went home and took a nap! There were other things I could have done, but the nap was screaming the loudest. I had Prayer Pals tonight and it went well. We didn't have too many kids but I have been wanting to clean the Hope House for over a week now and tonight I (with Shannon's help) got it to a manageable point. Now it won't be constantly on my mind!!After Prayer Pals I headed back to Elizabeth and Frank's for another game night and had even more fun than Friday. It was a really great way to end the weekend. I actually had some amazing times with the Lord this weekend as well...and I will probably share some of that soon (and it will make my whole "ring finger" question make more sense, haha).
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
The Unexpected
Today was full of irony, and before I go on I must say I'm not sure I am a fan of irony. I learned a lot today, and have even more to ponder. Here is my day.
I woke up at 6 a.m., took a shower and then got the girls up and ready for school. I had to take them home at 7 because I had to be in Center City by 8 for my day of jury duty. I expected to be there until around 3:30 (unless I was chosen for a jury). From there I would run a few errands, go back home, head to Prayer Pals at 6, church prayer at 6:30, be home around 9 and spend the evening relaxing. While I wasn't really looking forward to jury duty, I was excited to not be working all day. I took a great book with me and my journal and set out for what I thought would be a pretty sweet day.
As I sat in the jury room waiting to be called to a panel I started to journal. I journaled about the unexpected things that happen in life. I have been thinking about that a lot recently. Nothing in my life is how I expected it to be. I don't really know what I expected, but this isn't it. I went through this several months ago as I searched to decide if it was time to leave Philly. Unexpected things happened and they caused me to question.
I started thinking about the unexpected again when Carisa stepped down. I came on staff only 2 years ago to lead an after-school program that no longer exists and to work along side a woman who is now stepping out of ministry; and I have to work an additional part time job in order to be able to do this. Not at all what I expected.
I had/have a lot of questions.
I wrote in my journal today: "In general I don't think we have a concept of the unexpected. We are often thrown of for a moment by an unexpected illness, phone call, etc. but we eventually (often quickly) go back to life as usual. Then there are the life altering unexpected things...a death in the family, a terminal illness, a job loss, etc. These are dramatic, but eventually even they become a part of the norm. Eventually the unexpected becomes old news.
That still leaves me with the question, though, What do you do with the unexpected? When something is unexpectedly harder than you thought it would be, how do you know when its time to back away or if its just a call to fight?
If you quit the things that are hard and things get easier, is that proof that you did the right thing? I mean, logic would say that if you don't do things that are hard, then life won't be hard. Is that okay?
If you follow what you think is God's call and things don't turn out how you expected, did you make a mistake?
What do you do with the unexpected?"
I wrote that and then just sat. I had no answer, and I knew I would probably never have a complete answer. This may be the question I ponder for the rest of my life.
Not long after I finished that entry I was called to be on a panel as a prospective juror. I spent about an hour on the panel before it was decided that I would not serve on the jury. (An interesting side note: the reason I could not serve on this jury was that the defendant lived right around the corner from me!! Crazy!). Anyway, it was about 11:30 and normally I would have had to sit in the jury room for another 4 hours and possibly be on another panel. However, today was a light day and they decided they didn't need us anymore, so they let us go home.
I was so excited!! Sometimes the unexpected can be good! An unexpected check in the mail, an unexpected phone call from a friend you miss...or an unexpected afternoon off. I was so pumped! I was going to eat lunch and hang out in Center City for the rest of the day, praising Him for the unexpected.
As soon as I stepped out of the courthouse, I turned on my cell phone (you can't have them in the courthouse) and saw a missed call and voice mail. I checked it and listened to a friend tell me that he was taking my friend Shera to the Emergency Room. She was having a lot of pain and needed help. I called quickly to see how she was and found out that he was going to have to leave her at the hospital, he was too busy to stay. He was going to pick her up later when she was finished, but she would spend the day alone in the Emergency Room.
Sometimes the unexpected is not good. I know I would never want to spend any time alone in the Emergency Room and I would never want any of my friends to either. I immediately got on the train, headed back to my house, got in my car and was at the hospital with her in about 45 minutes. I got there around 12:15, we got home at 8:30 p.m. It was a long, unexpected day.
I struggled throughout the day. I had plans and those plans were gone. I got over that pretty quickly. But then there were the things I was supposed to do for other people. My friend had to leave Shera because he was too busy. Should I have left and done my work as well? I had to get someone to cover Prayer Pals for me and I missed church prayer. Is that okay? Do you always have to go with the unexpected, or should you treat the unexpected as temporary inconveniences and get back to what you had expected? How do you know what to do?
I don't regret how I spent my day, but I'm not sure that means I did what I was supposed to. I am not a person that believes in the end justifying the means. I was able to keep Shera calm, take care of her and help her through some painful and scary tests, all the while wondering if the doctor was going to come in and tell her something devastating. I am grateful to have been able to be there for her. I absolutely would not have wanted to be anywhere else...but does that mean that I was in the right place?
As you can see, my mind has been swimming with questions all day. Questions with no easy answer. The answer, of course, is probably "depends". What do you do with the unexpected? "Ask God". That is SO much easier said that done. It is very easy to convince ourselves that we are hearing God when we are really following our own desires. Sometimes our desires match up with His, but not always. How do you know the difference?
I don't have an answer to that question, although I am working on it. I do know that God has a plan and a will and He wants to share that with me. His word says that His desire for us is that we not be swayed by the changing winds but that we would stay firm in the faith He has given us. In other words, He does not want our lives to be governed by the things of life, whether they are expected or unexpected; He wants us to follow Him. He promises that if we seek Him, we will find Him. I sought Him back in May when unexpected circumstances led me to question my call to Philly. I found Him. I heard Him say stay. Since then, unexpected things have happened that could easily cause me to once again question my call to Philly. They have not, however, because I have heard Him tell me to stay. I will stay. The circumstances, good or bad, do not decide my life for me, He does.
What I have realized is that I find it hardest to follow Him when it comes to other people. I worried all day about the choice I had made not because I thought God wanted me to do something else but because I knew other people wanted me to do something else. I am a people pleaser in every way. I HATE letting people down and I work very hard (sometimes too hard) to make sure that I don't let people down. And when I do, I am devastated. This isn't completely a bad thing as it helps keep me accountable to my brothers and sisters. However, it also enslaves me to them (although they don't realize it). I make so many decisions based on what is going to be best for others rather than what I think God has called me to. Its kinda like the story of Mary and Martha...only at least Martha was busying herself to serve Jesus (not realizing that He just wanted to spend time with her); I'm busying myself to serve people. I don't even get it as much as Martha did...and she missed the mark!!
So, what do I do with the unexpected? Right now the only answer I have is...don't let the unexpected control you...allow God to use it to mold you.
I woke up at 6 a.m., took a shower and then got the girls up and ready for school. I had to take them home at 7 because I had to be in Center City by 8 for my day of jury duty. I expected to be there until around 3:30 (unless I was chosen for a jury). From there I would run a few errands, go back home, head to Prayer Pals at 6, church prayer at 6:30, be home around 9 and spend the evening relaxing. While I wasn't really looking forward to jury duty, I was excited to not be working all day. I took a great book with me and my journal and set out for what I thought would be a pretty sweet day.
As I sat in the jury room waiting to be called to a panel I started to journal. I journaled about the unexpected things that happen in life. I have been thinking about that a lot recently. Nothing in my life is how I expected it to be. I don't really know what I expected, but this isn't it. I went through this several months ago as I searched to decide if it was time to leave Philly. Unexpected things happened and they caused me to question.
I started thinking about the unexpected again when Carisa stepped down. I came on staff only 2 years ago to lead an after-school program that no longer exists and to work along side a woman who is now stepping out of ministry; and I have to work an additional part time job in order to be able to do this. Not at all what I expected.
I had/have a lot of questions.
I wrote in my journal today: "In general I don't think we have a concept of the unexpected. We are often thrown of for a moment by an unexpected illness, phone call, etc. but we eventually (often quickly) go back to life as usual. Then there are the life altering unexpected things...a death in the family, a terminal illness, a job loss, etc. These are dramatic, but eventually even they become a part of the norm. Eventually the unexpected becomes old news.
That still leaves me with the question, though, What do you do with the unexpected? When something is unexpectedly harder than you thought it would be, how do you know when its time to back away or if its just a call to fight?
If you quit the things that are hard and things get easier, is that proof that you did the right thing? I mean, logic would say that if you don't do things that are hard, then life won't be hard. Is that okay?
If you follow what you think is God's call and things don't turn out how you expected, did you make a mistake?
What do you do with the unexpected?"
I wrote that and then just sat. I had no answer, and I knew I would probably never have a complete answer. This may be the question I ponder for the rest of my life.
Not long after I finished that entry I was called to be on a panel as a prospective juror. I spent about an hour on the panel before it was decided that I would not serve on the jury. (An interesting side note: the reason I could not serve on this jury was that the defendant lived right around the corner from me!! Crazy!). Anyway, it was about 11:30 and normally I would have had to sit in the jury room for another 4 hours and possibly be on another panel. However, today was a light day and they decided they didn't need us anymore, so they let us go home.
I was so excited!! Sometimes the unexpected can be good! An unexpected check in the mail, an unexpected phone call from a friend you miss...or an unexpected afternoon off. I was so pumped! I was going to eat lunch and hang out in Center City for the rest of the day, praising Him for the unexpected.
As soon as I stepped out of the courthouse, I turned on my cell phone (you can't have them in the courthouse) and saw a missed call and voice mail. I checked it and listened to a friend tell me that he was taking my friend Shera to the Emergency Room. She was having a lot of pain and needed help. I called quickly to see how she was and found out that he was going to have to leave her at the hospital, he was too busy to stay. He was going to pick her up later when she was finished, but she would spend the day alone in the Emergency Room.
Sometimes the unexpected is not good. I know I would never want to spend any time alone in the Emergency Room and I would never want any of my friends to either. I immediately got on the train, headed back to my house, got in my car and was at the hospital with her in about 45 minutes. I got there around 12:15, we got home at 8:30 p.m. It was a long, unexpected day.
I struggled throughout the day. I had plans and those plans were gone. I got over that pretty quickly. But then there were the things I was supposed to do for other people. My friend had to leave Shera because he was too busy. Should I have left and done my work as well? I had to get someone to cover Prayer Pals for me and I missed church prayer. Is that okay? Do you always have to go with the unexpected, or should you treat the unexpected as temporary inconveniences and get back to what you had expected? How do you know what to do?
I don't regret how I spent my day, but I'm not sure that means I did what I was supposed to. I am not a person that believes in the end justifying the means. I was able to keep Shera calm, take care of her and help her through some painful and scary tests, all the while wondering if the doctor was going to come in and tell her something devastating. I am grateful to have been able to be there for her. I absolutely would not have wanted to be anywhere else...but does that mean that I was in the right place?
As you can see, my mind has been swimming with questions all day. Questions with no easy answer. The answer, of course, is probably "depends". What do you do with the unexpected? "Ask God". That is SO much easier said that done. It is very easy to convince ourselves that we are hearing God when we are really following our own desires. Sometimes our desires match up with His, but not always. How do you know the difference?
I don't have an answer to that question, although I am working on it. I do know that God has a plan and a will and He wants to share that with me. His word says that His desire for us is that we not be swayed by the changing winds but that we would stay firm in the faith He has given us. In other words, He does not want our lives to be governed by the things of life, whether they are expected or unexpected; He wants us to follow Him. He promises that if we seek Him, we will find Him. I sought Him back in May when unexpected circumstances led me to question my call to Philly. I found Him. I heard Him say stay. Since then, unexpected things have happened that could easily cause me to once again question my call to Philly. They have not, however, because I have heard Him tell me to stay. I will stay. The circumstances, good or bad, do not decide my life for me, He does.
What I have realized is that I find it hardest to follow Him when it comes to other people. I worried all day about the choice I had made not because I thought God wanted me to do something else but because I knew other people wanted me to do something else. I am a people pleaser in every way. I HATE letting people down and I work very hard (sometimes too hard) to make sure that I don't let people down. And when I do, I am devastated. This isn't completely a bad thing as it helps keep me accountable to my brothers and sisters. However, it also enslaves me to them (although they don't realize it). I make so many decisions based on what is going to be best for others rather than what I think God has called me to. Its kinda like the story of Mary and Martha...only at least Martha was busying herself to serve Jesus (not realizing that He just wanted to spend time with her); I'm busying myself to serve people. I don't even get it as much as Martha did...and she missed the mark!!
So, what do I do with the unexpected? Right now the only answer I have is...don't let the unexpected control you...allow God to use it to mold you.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Oh What a Night
Tonight I did the only thing left on my "I will Never" list...I led Kids Club. I actually taught the lesson!! I probably shouldn't be writing this now, I haven't had a lot of time to process, but I guess here is my first impression.
To start with, I was ridiculously nervous. Not quite as nervous as I was when I preached at church, but a very close second. I was pretty much up front the entire time, and that is my least favorite thing to do. I really don't like being up front. That isn't so much a humility thing as it is an insecurity thing...although even at my most confident I still prefer to be behind the scenes. However, once I am up front I usually find myself pretty comfortable, which is what happened tonight. I hate going up front, but once I was there, I was fine.
I was pretty excited about the lesson I had planned and while I didn't do it exactly how I wanted to (I doubt I will ever get it perfect), overall I was happy with how it went. We talked about how Jesus lived before He was born...how He left heaven to be with us. I have no idea what the kids thought (they always seem to have the same look on their faces) but I made it through. It feels good to have done one and hopefully it will make the next one easier. I really just have to get past the looks on the kids faces, I always think they are annoyed and/or bored. I remember always being riveted by Carisa's lessons but seeing those same looks on the kids faces, and I know the kids love Carisa's lessons.
I don't know what the future holds for Kids Club, but although tonight went pretty well I am not feeling a pull to making this my new job. We'll see how the rest of the season goes. I really enjoyed being in the Reading Room tonight. We are doing Mad Libs with the kids, teaching them what verbs, nouns, adjectives, etc. are. It was really fun tonight!
Bonita and Linda are spending the night tonight, which is funny to me. On Kids Club nights they pretty much go straight to bed, but they still love to come over. Works for me, I don't have to do much!! We will be getting up very early tomorrow though. I have jury duty (AGAIN!!) and have to be downtown by 8 a.m. So, I have to drop the girls off at home by 7, which means we get up at 6:30. Whew!
I have a lot of work to do over the next week or so for my job with AIM, but it comes at a really good time because I don't have to prepare my next Kids Club lesson for 2 weeks; next Tuesday is Family Night.
So, now that clubs have started back up I am getting a real look at what the next few months are going to be like. I'm really glad I got to ease into it...starting with AIM before clubs start up and things going a little slow with AIM in the beginning. Its already starting to pick up and get busier, but I still feel really good about the way things are going. I'm really excited to make it to Saturday, Hershey Park!!!! (I love my days off!)
On a completely different note...I really like my neighbors but I don't enjoy their music 24/7.
To start with, I was ridiculously nervous. Not quite as nervous as I was when I preached at church, but a very close second. I was pretty much up front the entire time, and that is my least favorite thing to do. I really don't like being up front. That isn't so much a humility thing as it is an insecurity thing...although even at my most confident I still prefer to be behind the scenes. However, once I am up front I usually find myself pretty comfortable, which is what happened tonight. I hate going up front, but once I was there, I was fine.
I was pretty excited about the lesson I had planned and while I didn't do it exactly how I wanted to (I doubt I will ever get it perfect), overall I was happy with how it went. We talked about how Jesus lived before He was born...how He left heaven to be with us. I have no idea what the kids thought (they always seem to have the same look on their faces) but I made it through. It feels good to have done one and hopefully it will make the next one easier. I really just have to get past the looks on the kids faces, I always think they are annoyed and/or bored. I remember always being riveted by Carisa's lessons but seeing those same looks on the kids faces, and I know the kids love Carisa's lessons.
I don't know what the future holds for Kids Club, but although tonight went pretty well I am not feeling a pull to making this my new job. We'll see how the rest of the season goes. I really enjoyed being in the Reading Room tonight. We are doing Mad Libs with the kids, teaching them what verbs, nouns, adjectives, etc. are. It was really fun tonight!
Bonita and Linda are spending the night tonight, which is funny to me. On Kids Club nights they pretty much go straight to bed, but they still love to come over. Works for me, I don't have to do much!! We will be getting up very early tomorrow though. I have jury duty (AGAIN!!) and have to be downtown by 8 a.m. So, I have to drop the girls off at home by 7, which means we get up at 6:30. Whew!
I have a lot of work to do over the next week or so for my job with AIM, but it comes at a really good time because I don't have to prepare my next Kids Club lesson for 2 weeks; next Tuesday is Family Night.
So, now that clubs have started back up I am getting a real look at what the next few months are going to be like. I'm really glad I got to ease into it...starting with AIM before clubs start up and things going a little slow with AIM in the beginning. Its already starting to pick up and get busier, but I still feel really good about the way things are going. I'm really excited to make it to Saturday, Hershey Park!!!! (I love my days off!)
On a completely different note...I really like my neighbors but I don't enjoy their music 24/7.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Fun with my Cousin!
I had such a fun day off today!!! My cousin (I only have two, haha) came to visit for the day and we had a BLAST!! Actually, she got in last night (she lives in NY, so she took the train) and we stayed up for several hours talking. We are very good at talking, we take after our moms. :)
We planned on getting up and being ready to go by about 10, but we both accidentally slept in until about 10:30, whoops. It was probably a good thing, though, we both had pretty busy weeks and needed the sleep. Our original plan for the day was to go to brunch and then see the King Tut exhibit at the Franklin Institute. Unfortunately, I didn't think to get tickets yesterday and they were sold out for the entire day today by the time we called. Its okay though, the tickets were $32 each, and I am okay with not spending that. So, we ended up going to brunch with some of my friends and had a really good time (and ate really good food!). From there we went to Center City to see the movie "Across the Universe". Its an art film that was only playing in one theater, and it was GREAT!! The theater was very cool too...you can get chai and coffee to take into the movie with you!
After the movie I drove her to the train station and she headed back to NY. It was a short trip but we got a lot of good time to talk and we both had a lot of fun. We have a good system of visiting one another every few months which is really fun. I visited her in April, she came to me in Sept. so I guess I need to plan another trip in January...which I am actually already doing (apparently that is when Broadway shows are the cheapest). She and I are only a year apart and pretty much grew up together (our moms are sisters and best friends). My mom, brother and I even lived in her house for a summer. She and I went to Tech together and even had some classes together (we were both business majors, though I was management and she was marketing). We are actually VERY different people (I love sports, she loves theater...my favorite group of all time is Boyz II Men, hers is REM), but we really enjoy one another and its always so refreshing to hang out.
I had hoped to come home and work on Kids Club a bit tonight, but I am still clueless about what to do. I did have a "duh" moment about all of this though, haha. I have been trying not to stress and coming up with all the ways to cover myself if I don't have anything for Tuesday and I realized that I have not taken any time to pray!! How stupid is that?!? I know God has something He wants to say to these kids, and whether He (or I) likes it or not, I am going to be the one to say it...so whatever it is, He needs to tell me! But, He can't tell me if I don't ask Him and then listen!!! So, that's what I am trying to do. He hasn't said anything yet, but I get the feeling He has been waiting for me to ask. :)
I should be at the laundromat right now, but I think I can wait a few more days before I have to re-wear things that I should not be re-wearing (i.e., you will smell me before you see me). So, I am going to watch some TV and then maybe get to bed at a decent hour!
We planned on getting up and being ready to go by about 10, but we both accidentally slept in until about 10:30, whoops. It was probably a good thing, though, we both had pretty busy weeks and needed the sleep. Our original plan for the day was to go to brunch and then see the King Tut exhibit at the Franklin Institute. Unfortunately, I didn't think to get tickets yesterday and they were sold out for the entire day today by the time we called. Its okay though, the tickets were $32 each, and I am okay with not spending that. So, we ended up going to brunch with some of my friends and had a really good time (and ate really good food!). From there we went to Center City to see the movie "Across the Universe". Its an art film that was only playing in one theater, and it was GREAT!! The theater was very cool too...you can get chai and coffee to take into the movie with you!
After the movie I drove her to the train station and she headed back to NY. It was a short trip but we got a lot of good time to talk and we both had a lot of fun. We have a good system of visiting one another every few months which is really fun. I visited her in April, she came to me in Sept. so I guess I need to plan another trip in January...which I am actually already doing (apparently that is when Broadway shows are the cheapest). She and I are only a year apart and pretty much grew up together (our moms are sisters and best friends). My mom, brother and I even lived in her house for a summer. She and I went to Tech together and even had some classes together (we were both business majors, though I was management and she was marketing). We are actually VERY different people (I love sports, she loves theater...my favorite group of all time is Boyz II Men, hers is REM), but we really enjoy one another and its always so refreshing to hang out.
I had hoped to come home and work on Kids Club a bit tonight, but I am still clueless about what to do. I did have a "duh" moment about all of this though, haha. I have been trying not to stress and coming up with all the ways to cover myself if I don't have anything for Tuesday and I realized that I have not taken any time to pray!! How stupid is that?!? I know God has something He wants to say to these kids, and whether He (or I) likes it or not, I am going to be the one to say it...so whatever it is, He needs to tell me! But, He can't tell me if I don't ask Him and then listen!!! So, that's what I am trying to do. He hasn't said anything yet, but I get the feeling He has been waiting for me to ask. :)
I should be at the laundromat right now, but I think I can wait a few more days before I have to re-wear things that I should not be re-wearing (i.e., you will smell me before you see me). So, I am going to watch some TV and then maybe get to bed at a decent hour!
Friday, September 21, 2007
10 Reasons why I need a Husband...
Haha, just the title of this blog makes me laugh. This is one of the funny things I wrote in my journal one day when I was feeling overwhelmed with life and decided that a husband would ease my burdens, at least at that moment. I know a man would NOT solve all my problems, and in fact may add to them in some ways...but when I am looking at needing to get my car inspected, pick up the kids, and go to the laundromat in a span of about 2 hours...well, having someone else around would be helpful. So, I made this list!
Before I start, let me also make it clear that I am in fact NOT looking for a husband, haha. I am perfectly capable of doing everything on this list (or working around what I can't do, e.g. going to the laundromat since I can't hook up my washer and dryer). I have been and will continue to do the things on the list, and I will do them well. In fact, my life is so insanely busy right now there really isn't room for a husband (I have a hard time making room for my God!). And before you all start telling me, "Oh! That's when you're husband is going to come, when you aren't looking for him!", you can just stop. I have never been looking for a husband and I have been too busy for one for about 5 years now...and he still hasn't come. I'm thinking, and this is just a thought, that he will come in the LORD's timing...not mine or anyone elses. We'll just have to wait and see if I am right. :)
Oh, and I obviously understand that husband's are more than just people to run errands for you, haha. This list does not include all of the emotional and spiritual desires that a husband would fill. These are simply practical ways that a husband would be beneficial to me. :)
So, now here is the list...
1) Take care of my car...oil changes, inspection, etc.
2) Hook up washer and dryer...or go to the laundromat for me occasionally
3) Pick up the kids and drive them to wherever I am supposed to be taking them
4) Touch up paint from when my church painted my house (including repainting some of the walls)
5) Cook dinner...or at least put the leftovers on a plate for me and microwave them
6) Help carry groceries into the house after a trip to the store
7) Help drive on long road trips
8) Speak (with me or instead of me) at supporting churches!!!
9) Clean the litter box occasionally
10) Go places with me at night (okay, this one I try not to do on my own...but would like to if I ever do have a husband!!)
Since I wrote this in my journal, I have added to the list but I think I'll leave it alone for now. If I'm not careful I will start looking for a husband...well, looking for someone who can do things for me, haha. That would not be good.
Anyway, just wanted to share! Hopefully I'll have something interesting to write soon...don't hold your breath though... :)
Before I start, let me also make it clear that I am in fact NOT looking for a husband, haha. I am perfectly capable of doing everything on this list (or working around what I can't do, e.g. going to the laundromat since I can't hook up my washer and dryer). I have been and will continue to do the things on the list, and I will do them well. In fact, my life is so insanely busy right now there really isn't room for a husband (I have a hard time making room for my God!). And before you all start telling me, "Oh! That's when you're husband is going to come, when you aren't looking for him!", you can just stop. I have never been looking for a husband and I have been too busy for one for about 5 years now...and he still hasn't come. I'm thinking, and this is just a thought, that he will come in the LORD's timing...not mine or anyone elses. We'll just have to wait and see if I am right. :)
Oh, and I obviously understand that husband's are more than just people to run errands for you, haha. This list does not include all of the emotional and spiritual desires that a husband would fill. These are simply practical ways that a husband would be beneficial to me. :)
So, now here is the list...
1) Take care of my car...oil changes, inspection, etc.
2) Hook up washer and dryer...or go to the laundromat for me occasionally
3) Pick up the kids and drive them to wherever I am supposed to be taking them
4) Touch up paint from when my church painted my house (including repainting some of the walls)
5) Cook dinner...or at least put the leftovers on a plate for me and microwave them
6) Help carry groceries into the house after a trip to the store
7) Help drive on long road trips
8) Speak (with me or instead of me) at supporting churches!!!
9) Clean the litter box occasionally
10) Go places with me at night (okay, this one I try not to do on my own...but would like to if I ever do have a husband!!)
Since I wrote this in my journal, I have added to the list but I think I'll leave it alone for now. If I'm not careful I will start looking for a husband...well, looking for someone who can do things for me, haha. That would not be good.
Anyway, just wanted to share! Hopefully I'll have something interesting to write soon...don't hold your breath though... :)
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