We are leaving tomorrow (after church) for our annual winter staff retreat to Keswick, a retreat center in New Jersey. I am so excited to get away and spend some quality time with the staff, I really enjoy everyone!
I am also excited about this retreat because I really feel like we are more united as a staff than we have ever been!! Not that we are generally not united, but God has been doing some awesome things recently that have me so excited about the team of people He has put together to be a part of what He is doing at Cornerstone! For the past 2 weeks at our weekly staff prayer meetings the Lord has really been uniting us under one vision and has us all so excited about the things He is doing. Its such a blessing!!
There are definitely some things I am not so excited about with this retreat, however. One of the best things about staff retreat is that its a family retreat and while we do spend time in meetings, we spend most of our time relaxing and hanging out as families. But I no longer have a family. I used to, but I don't anymore. Linda and Bonita weren't LIKE family to me, they WERE family. And now, they aren't. Of course I still have my parents and my brother, and they are AMAZING and I love them so much, so I am not family-less. But, I have lost a huge part of my family.
A lot of the things I enjoy doing the most, I enjoyed because I got to share them with the girls. Not anymore. The girls have been in my life for over 7 years. Over half of Bonita's life, and exactly half of Linda's. For my entire time in Philly.
I really enjoy every single family on staff (I am now the only single person left). I enjoy the husbands, wives, and all of the kids. There is always so much joy and laughter on these retreats (and occasionally some uncomfortable moments, but we get past those, haha), I know I will have a great time. I will also be mourning the loss of such a big part of my life and heart. Its going to be a bittersweet (I'm getting really tired of that word) time.
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