Kinda Pathetic

My life is kind of pathetic right now. Actually, its really pathetic. I'm not quite single (I have a 12 year old living with me), but I'm certainly not a family (no man, and the 12 year old is not mine).

This means I don't really get invited to anything. If there are family events going on, I'm not invited because I don't really have a family here in Philly. On the other hand, I do have a 12 year old living with me, so I don't get invited to young adult/single stuff. Of course, part of that is the fact that I only have 1 single friend in Philly, and she is pretty busy. The rest of my friends are busy with their families, new babies, pregnancies, etc. (Not that my friends are ignoring me, they all have so much going on!) I feel VERY blessed to have a network of people in my life, many of whom are here in Philly, that I know care about me and would be there for me in a crisis, no questions asked. Its just kind of challenging to not really have anyone to talk to. I can easily go a week without a real adult conversation. (Which means I tend to unload when the opportunity arises...gotta work on that, haha)

Of course, I am part of the problem as well (shocking!). My days are actually pretty busy, and people constantly need things from me. So, when it comes to the few times that I might actually get invited to something, I am often too tired to go! Its a sad cycle...

Plus, I'm pretty sure my former roommate is still upset with me. She had a bonfire at her house last weekend that that many people (pretty much all of our mutual friends) were invited to, except me. She also held an event for teen girls and while I am the only other leader of the teen girls, I was not invited.

So, my sad life consists of working at a computer from 9-3 every day. Then, I pick Bonita up from school, help get homework done, cook and eat dinner, head out to evening ministry, come home, watch some TV and then head to bed. Exactly what you would expect from a single 28 year old woman, right? Oh, and my exciting weekends consist of grocery shopping, laundry, housecleaning, and preparing for the week ahead. This weekend will also include doing my taxes!! (And before you start to think, "hey, that's what I do too!", let me remind you that I am SINGLE).

Things with Bonita continue to go pretty well. She is becoming a teenager, so she spends a lot of time in her room. I was EXACTLY like that when I was a teen! I spent more time in my room than out of it when I was home (maybe that's when my patheticness started...), so I understand her need to be alone. Linda continues to be one step forward, then two steps back. Still running that race...

I have an appointment for Bonita, her mom, and me to meet with PA Cyber and hopefully get her registered for next year. Its not a guarantee, her grades and attendance aren't great, so I will be praying a lot up until the meeting (its not until the end of May). I do feel very confirmed in my decision as Bonita keeps coming home with more and more stories about things that go on at school. The other day they watched a video on gang rape in her science class. Yeah, I'm not kidding...

I HAVE gotten back on track with my exercising, which is helping me feel a lot better. I actually start my day no later than 6 a.m., which I NEVER thought would happen. I made the commitment at the beginning of January to stick to an early morning schedule for at least a month; that's how long they say it takes for something to become a habit. Turns out, that habit thing is true! Not only that, but it turns out I am really enjoying the time, and feeling better about myself as I (very slowly!) get in shape.

There's the update! Not very upbeat, sorry about that. Just kinda where things are right now. I am pretty excited that my friends Marcella and Carisa are due to have their babies in the next 2 weeks or so. I'm really starting to like babies!! I'm also excited because next week is Family Night AND my month of leading Children's Church is over (although this last month went really well!), so I don't have ANY lessons to plan this week! What ever will I do with all my free time?? :)