Freaking Out

I am more than a little freaked out right now. Its a good kind of freak out though, if there is such a thing. Its the kind of freak out where you know that God is up to something big, but its still really scary! Yeah, that's me right now...

As I mentioned before, I will be heading to South Boston, VA in 2 weeks to hang out with my brother (WOOHOO!) and speak at a church (Ash Ave. Baptist). When I agreed to speak I was under the impression that I would simply share 5-10 minutes about myself and my ministry. I was a little off...

Apparently, I am the entire service. So, I will be speaking for 30-40 minutes. In addition, several churches in town take turns having their services broadcast on the radio; and my Sunday just happens to be the Sunday that Ash Ave Baptist will be on the radio. AHHHH!!!!

Many of you are probably reading this and laughing at me, and that's fine. I hope its because you have the confidence in me that I don't have in myself. :) I know in my head it will all be fine, but I will continue to freak out until its over. (I am nervous EVERY Tuesday night before Kids Club, but I do manage through, haha). 30 minutes, and on the radio?!?

I'm not just nervous about the speaking (although that's a big part of it!), but I'm not sure how I will find the time to really prepare what I want. I guess I need to work on that whole "trust in God" thing.

This is not the only reason I am freaking out, however. There is more...

AIM will be flying me to Chicago the first weekend in April to teach a one day seminar to youth pastors. Hopefully I will have a co-leader (and hopefully he will do the majority of the speaking!), but still...more standing in front of people and speaking.

Oh but wait, there's more! My aunt has invited me (and I stupidly accepted!) to come and speak to her women's bible study group....of about 100 women! This talk (which will most likely come 2 days after I return from Chicago) will be completely different from my Ash Ave Baptist presentation. Instead, I will be focusing more specifically on the gifts God has given me and how He has called me to use them. So, while I will be sharing about my ministry, the bigger focus will be on my life with God, especially a single woman in ministry. I'll say it again...AHHHHHH!!!

Can you tell I'm a little nervous?

And, while preparing all of these talks and presentations, I also have Kids Club and Children's Church to prepare. I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. Can't we go back to the days when people just told me what to do, and I did it?

I liked those days...