Ice Skating!

Today was the last After-School field trip for the year, and probably forever. It was a BLAST as it was the first time a lot of the kids had ever been ice skating. We actually had all 16 kids come on the field trip and everyone had so much fun. It was a bitter sweet time knowing that I probably won't be able to do after-school next year, but I had fun nonetheless. Actually, we still had to deal with some of the fighting/gossipping that has become a problem and it just reminded me how difficult After-School really can be.

I have been struggling with some guilt recently realizing just how burnt out I had become with After-School by the end of the year. There were many days when all the kids had was me, and they had to deal with my short fuse and just feeling overwhelmed. I wasn't able to help the kids the way I wanted to, to love them they way I wanted to...and overall I just wasn't able to be who I wanted to be for them. That's a really hard thing for me to accept, but I am going to have to. I'm not sure what I could have done differently, but there is definitely nothing I can do about it now.

I am very excited because at the After-School party I was able to present 8 kids with a really special prize. 8 of the kids earned over 600 points in our Points Challenge and as a reward we are taking a trip to Hershey Park (an amusement/water park)!!! I am so excited about this trip I can't stand it! I want to go right now!! :)

On a different note, I am finally finished packing and ready to move. I am moving after church and I can't wait. It will be the first time in 2 years that I will be living in MY house, and I really pray that I won't have to move again for a very long time. I get to spend the summer working on the house and really making it home. I am most definitely a homebody, so having a real home will be huge for me. Plus, there are more stairs at my house, and Gizmo could use the exercise, haha. :)

I am really looking forward to this week. We are still on our "Spring Break", meaning that all of our regular clubs (Kids Club, Teen Club, etc) are on a break, so my schedule is much less hectic. Despite the break, the past few weeks have been pretty busy for me, but this week isn't booked up yet! I will have plenty of unpacking to do, but unpacking doesn't stress me out nearly as much as packing. I don't feel like I have had a lot of time to just rest with the Lord, and I am really longing to do that. So much of my time with Him recently has felt kinda stressful with me asking a lot of questions and worrying rather than trusting. So, I am going to take some time this week to just be with Him. I'm not even going to ask Him about His plan for me or anything like that, I just want to be with Him.